Back to Vegan!

Started vegan again!
So far, so good! It has been 5 days.

a wake up call!

well, obviously i have my struggles and ups and downs with my diet and health.
my last entry, i was obviously OFF the vegan/raw wagon. i was feeling OKAY, cuz i was staying away from gluten however i was still struggling with depression, aches and pains, headaches, my vision seemed to be getting worse etc. but hey! you can get OTC meds for all that, right!?!?!
anyhoo, the last 2 months i noticed i just seemd to be getting worse and worse and to add to it i felt like i was going abit crazy. the doctor put me on anti depressants, pain pills and xanax. cool! they didn't seem to be helping. gradually i got worse and worse and was blacking out, sobbing all the time, i felt like i was having an emotional breakdown again. i was very scared. all rolled into that i noticed i was having signs of being pregnant. about the time i noticed i started feeling EXTREMELY SICK! t seems i was miscarrying. so i had another week of dealing with that. it was AWFUL! as i layed there i had a lot of time to reflect on how and why this may have happened and how i may have prevented it. i knew i NEVER wanted to expereince this again! NEVER! and i never wanted to feel the guilt of my body aborting a life possibly because i hadn't taken care of myself like i know i can.
i felt something change inside of me!
during the miscarriage, i was having high blood pressure, odd pains, panic attacks...which really scared me. my body was REALLY reacting badly to this miscarriage. i immediately started a detox and taking golden seal. no caffeine, no sugar, only absolutely neccesary meds, and i started juicing.
for 3 days now i have been doing that and today i feel better than i have felt in many months maybe years. my vision is better, no headache, no achey joints, i can breath easier.....
here is what i am doing:
golden seal every few hours
juicing a bag of carrots, a head of kale, an apple, and a lemon
drinking green tea with lemon
blending rice milk with blueberries, pomegranate and raspberries
and thats about it.
this morning i passed a liver or gallstone, not sure which.
at any rate, i am feeling better, clearer and more myself than i have in 10 years!
i WANT babies and never want to expereince a miscarriage again. that there is enough to motivate me to continue being healthy whether that means vegan or raw vegan and or juicing and or doing regular detox's.
peace

the only thing raw....

is my nose from too much sun!!!
meat, dairy, sugar, you name it, it's on my menu these days!
HOWEVER, i must say, not eating gluten has truly improved my life and energy levels!

M.I.A.

yep, m.i.a.
i was doing some research because i was still feeling like crap even on a vegan/raw vegan diet. i came across "celiac disease"! you can't be diagnosed without some testing but i thought i'd just put myself on the diet to see what happened.
wallah! i immediately felt better! so the past couple weeks have been an experiment in that. i was eating some dairy and meat and was feeling great. finally 2 weeks later i am feeling abit heavy and am fine tuning to keep the no gluten, no sugar, no alcohol BUT head back toward vegan.
I WILL FIND the balance. =-)
i am sooooo onto something though with the no gluten. my pain levels are WAYYY down, i have WAYYY more energy, depression lifted, a lot more mental clarity and my stomach has not hurt once in 2 weeks!
it amazes me that i have avoided certain foods all of my life because i thought they were making me sick when in reality it wasn't them but the "gluten" that i was eating with them!

a very vegan day...

BUT, NOT a "good" vegan day!
i had saltines and a soda! eh!
not AWFUL! but not GREAT!
i'm on the up slope! =-)
i am WONDERING if i have celiac disease. NO ONE has ever been able to "diagnose" what ever it is that i have...you should hear the things they have WONDERED that i have had! but NO conclusive results!
i have put MYSELF on a restrictive diet because certain things make me feel better but NEVER have i felt 100%!!!
i was reading about celiac disease earlier and i am SOOOOO going on the "diet" to see if i get better!
help me lord!....find what is wrong with me....for i have so much more to do for you! =-)

off the wagon...

for a few days now! last saturday we had a birthday party with pizza and cake, sunday was valentines day with yummee filet mignon, lobster spring rolls and duck egg rolls, and cheesecake.
it was all so yummee!
yesterday, i did vegan but this morning i had J in the B! a weakness of mine! mozarella and chicken strips! =-D
anyway, back to it from here on out! my body can only handle so much, then i start getting nauteous all the time!

RAWKIN RAW "meatballs" with tomato sauce

Step One: "Meatballs"
2 c soaked walnuts
2 c portabella or babybella mushrooms marinated in Bragg's, olive oil and garlic for 1 hour
put nuts and mushrooms in a food processor and add parsley, crushed red pepper, thyme, oregano, garlic and salt to taste.
add olive oil if you need to bring it to the right consistancy to roll into balls.
roll into 1 inch balls and place on dehydrator trays. dehydrate for 4-6 hours.
Step Two: Marinara Sauce
1/2 c sundried tomato's soaked for 2 hours
2 tomatos, diced
1/8 c chopped green olives
put into food processor and add oregano, garlic, salt, and olive oil to taste.